I can't speak for everyone in my family, but I know that I feel like I have grown so much in this past year. It's been a roller coaster at times, but overall, a very positive experience. To say that we've fallen in love with this little one is an understatement. God blessed us with a beautiful baby, that has turned out to be generally happy and content. She's blossoming into a fun toddler. The thought of giving her up is not an easy one.
And we might not have to. :) But that won't be known for sure for a little while yet. All I know is this: God has been shaping and molding my heart, and calling me to yield to His will in ways bigger than I imagined. A lot is happening in our lives right now: our oldest growing into adulthood, a baby in our home, Dan taking on greater church responsibilities, and we aren't getting any younger. In some ways this seems like a crazy time in our lives to be taking on extra child-care responsibilities. And yet it feels right. My heart has often felt sad for the needs of children "out there" in the world. But now God has brought one into our home. And I can't imagine not saying Yes to God if He calls us to raise any of these precious children that He brings our way.
Actually, I feel pretty humbled to think that God can use me to make a difference in a child's life. I'm thankful that He can use even the weakest of vessels to accomplish great things. May He receive the glory for any good accomplished through our obedience to His call!
